suppose to be happy!

news alerted, first to share: miss tan seeyeo

then msn nick..

yday waited for him till i almost fell aslp..he went out for dinner with his friends after meeting me..till 12 plus then he contacted me back again..cos his hp was in his friend's bag..hmmmm..

so fast, making me feel that i'm the only one who is 'high' about this news that we're finally together..

i was thinking..if he is doing it willingly because he wants it to happen, or because of that sms..

and i still dont know what exactly happened that night..no reasons for the change of attitude..think i'll just let it pass again..no point forcing him to say when he dont wish to..dont wanna make things worse..

whichever it is, hope things will turn out well and better!
yup, long way to go!

called sy yday night..wanted to catch up with her cos it has been a long time since we really talked..but she dont want to talk to me!! heavy colour light friends! got edmund then dont want ai-ching already..sad sad!

oh and ion called to invite me to this gathering of his, to discuss abt some business plans..reserved a 'seat' for me..but i dont think i'm prepared to do business so fast..still got a lot of things to consider! dont even know him lah..tsktsk..will sms him later to reject the offer..

yup..alright, gonna start cracking on my work..good day to everyone!

looking forward to:
tonight's bday celebration with sh
saturday's bday celebration with paul
next saturday's sentosa outing
following weekend's batam trip
and august's bali/genting trip.. :)

*http://world.doubutsu-uranai.com/result.php
- this is quite accurate
i'm pegasus!

he made this date special for us 080708

he came to my office building just now..waited for me to knock off from work..

he surprised me with his calls at 5+ gg 6pm..cos i didnt expect to hear from him out of a sudden..esp cos i havent hear from him since yday's incident..i almost thought that his silence meant consent..consenting that we should stop the "scandal" and return back to the normal pri sch classmate status..

this incident bothered me the whole day at work..

yup, we walked to the station and had a talk there..

he finally asked that magical question..and i accepted..i couldnt bear to reject..cos i dont want myself to regret..like what i did, after sending that sms this morning b4 i fell aslp in my bed..

nevertheless, i think this sms somehow helped us to be together too..if not for this 5-sms-long sms, i think we're still gg to stuck at that 灰色地带..all the tears i shed yday are meant for today..i think is worth it..no pain, no gain..it really will stop the "scandal", but not back to pri sch classmate status..but something else more and better!

i know all my friends are waiting for this day to happen too..esp those who kept questioning abt him recently..so people, look here

I'M OFFICIALLY ATTACHED TO MR JOEL LI HC!!
and i'm really happy about this fact..
*hope he is happy about this fact too*

anyway boyfriend, thanks for the honey (money) water and salonpas stickers for my muscle aches..thanks for being so sweet..

LOVES!
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO


*constraints are

whether we will still be as close and good?
as things and people always changes..

whether we are suitable to be together?
after being together will cause more conflicts..

whether he can tolerate my attitude and the way i do things?
cos some people just dont like the way i handle things..

whether he is serious about this relationship?
cos i dont want to get myself hurt again..

all mysteries..to be known some time later..

i just want myself to be happy now! live w/o regrets!

i need my slp soon! goodnight!

it hurts

my eyes hurts..didnt slp well last night..

not only my eyes thou..

smth happened yday night..i dont even know what causes it to happen..everything seems fine..until during dinner..it's like having dinner with someone who cant speak..didnt talk at all over dinner..how strange..

maybe i'm too sensitive, but i cant bring myself to continue to stick myself to him when his attitude suddenly changed..is it me? the dinner? or smth else happened? *seriously i dont even know*

not the first time thou..i must admit again, i dont understand the male species at all..or in fact, i dont exactly understand humans, at all..

it hurts..maybe it's a trivial thing to you, but it does have a great impact on me..every little thing does affect, even if i dont show or mention..

not secured..

scared..

i'm selfish, protecting myself from getting hurt again..

allow me to be depress for awhile, before standing up again..

*the deeper i fell, the deeper i'm hurt, the longer time i need to recover..

but i will..
eventually..
as always..

i dont know what will happen next..
back to previous state? make us stronger? or back to pri sch classmate status?

whichever outcome, i'll accept..

hope everything will be fine..
hope i'll be able to overcome the barrier in me..

another new week gg to start

so fast sunday already! how come weekdays got 5days while weekend got only 2? omg!

yday went to amk for breakfast (carrot cake, black) with hc..then met yb,lyn and jm to play badminton at thomson cc..so fun! long time nv exercise already, so i'm getting muscle aches right now..have difficulty sitting,squatting and climbing stairs! ouches!

anyway went back to hc's place to bathe after the badminton session..thanks to his ah ma for the fruit juices! :) oranges and carrots!

headed to vivocity to shop for our stuffs..bought chocolates (chocolate factory's chocolate are nice!), sh's bday present and bought a top for my sis from pull and bear..gss sales! hc bought his banana (the headwear that sounds like banana actually =P ) had ljs and slacked at there..had a terrible stomache and had to go back home with much difficulty..thank god i got hc with me..thanks for diverting my pain by pinching and hitting my hand and thigh.. -_- and of cos..not forgetting the 3 little pigs, princess and the pea, and hokkien version of snow white and the 7 drawfs! loves! mumu~ :)

today went his hse again to take my stuffs from yday's badminton..cos left them there yday, didnt want to carry it ard vivo..went to visit eric at yishun rsh..chat up with him and had chicken rice dinner with him..updated each other, and asked him to join the rest for sh's bday celebration..hope he'll be able to make it..

now helping hc to resize some of his photos from his bali trip..and maybe do some work to prepare for my other proposals..eating chocolates and chatting with lyn now..planning for sentosa frisbee,vb and tanning!

yup alright!

end of blog for today.

i'minlove,felldeeper.

FRIDAY!

yeah, finally it's friday!

today very hectic..since morning was edited the proposals and stuffs..busy printing and filing and preparing the tenders..thank god sean helped me with the filing..if not i'll sure be late for the submission :)

taxi driver quite nice! cos waited for me outside science park while i went in to drop the tenders :)

alright gonna start on my work..so that i can enjoy my satuday and sunday :)

tmr going for badminton session with tps cliques :)

loves :)

*BATAM trip postponed
due to alot of circumstances


ohh played a game that day with hc..
here's our trophy !

stucked outside office~

yday met hc up at amk mrt platform..had a small tiff..i'm too short tempered!! omg..why ahh?! so sorry..

anyway thanks for coming back for me.. :)

had dinner and slack at home..

he's coming tonight for dinner too..mummy's gonna cook chilli chicken! her chilli chicken very nice one leh! haha..

yup..most prob prawning still on bah..havent talk to my sis yet..since last friday night..thou she and hc on talking terms already..so we shall see~

anyway, i'm now stucked outside the office with two of my colleagues..early birds~ all of us without keys lah..haha..so gotta wait for someone with keys to come to work..omg~

get well soon, carmen! *she got food poisoning!* god bless!

looking forward to
BATAM AND BALI!

LOVES!

back to office

monday night met hc after work at novena..had the ayam penyet there..the chilli is powerful and i think the smashed beef steak is better than the smashed chicken..yup yup :)

didnt go work yday! rotted at home most of the time!

cos had a bad flu on monday night and tues morning..

took MC..went to the 'express' clinic..step in and out of the clinic in less than 10mins..the doc just ask what's wrong, take temp, exchange a few more words, then can go already..wooo, i like the express service!

doc says i got slight fever also..so gave 1 day MC..

had porridge with mum at sunplaza, saw vivien 舅母at the foodcourt and ntuc too..

met hc up for dinner at my mum's place for mui fun and hor fun..

then home, watched tv, slp!

how i wish i could take another days' off! YAWNS! back to work!

looking forward to:
9th sh's bday celebration,
batam and bali trip..

loves!

<3! joby