sick and tired of being middleman

i really dont like to be a middleman..ESPECIALLY when both sides are the people who i dont want to have any unhappy feelings with..HAIZ HAIZ

i'm really very depressed that everything turned out to be like this..i must admit that i'm not a good liar..esp when it comes to BIG and SERIOUS problems..and lying to the people i love..i'm not good at all..even if i managed to, the light will come out very soon also..SO might as well, in the first place, dont lie..yah i hate lying..both ways, lying to pple and being deceived by pple..

TROUBLED

really didnt know what to do..could have walked out on her..but i didnt..cos i know i'll make things worse..and i know it'll be better to stay on with her..cos i know, she needs me..esp at this critical moment..I GUESS~

i really want the best for her..and for everyone..

NO BIAS-NESS and PREJUDISM

I LOVE ALL MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS

(not in order)

family to name especially:
sister,
mummy,
brother,
samuel,
san san and zhi zhi,
other cousins,
uncles and aunties,
late grandparents..

friends to name especially:
blss - seeyeo,yongcai,hanxian and MORE
pyss - sapx,mavis,marcus and MORE
tp - carmen,huisan,shuxin,shannen and MORE
tp proj grp - meiqin,jorine,gimkai,xiaoshi
tp sip mates - salinah,gavin
rsh colleagues - songhui,sheueling,weeling,weetat,yvonna,ah lai,tracy,eric,halim,juvy,arnold,huirong,unclephilip,baohuei and MORE
others - fangting,paul,bestman,jiazhu,kaysiang and MORE

and of cos..these are only the closer ones that have been in contact most recently..
the rest whose names are not in the list will also be loved by me..as long as you did care and concern abt me..

i suddenly felt my life is empty without all these pple..

and perhaps, God