stressed and busy!

work stress! couldnt finish the task on time..cos i didnt know she needs the vest list by friday..and i was busy doing the certificates..OMG..so stressed..feel like going back to sch..feel like going back to RSH!!

and what upset me the MOST is that the addresses i hand written on the envelopes and the stamps i pasted manually on the envelopes..was rejected cos thomas wants to give out the certs next yr! OMGOSH! and he said my pace too fast and shouldnt do the envelopes so fast..how the hell i know he dont need it this yr! if not i wouldnt even waste my time checking the schools' directory website and writing the addresses of 67 schools on the envelopes and pasting stamps on them! TOTALLY PISSED when i heard that he changed his mind to send out the certs next yr!

can anyone understand how i feel? sad..depressed..made myself look so useless and incompetent..no confidence anymore..i dont like to feel guilty and inferior~ small matter? but i take it seriously..almost felt like crying..

felt pissed with thomas but i cant voice it out..i did the task b4 deadline when was redundant..

angry with myself for not doing the vest first b4 the certificates..cant finish by deadline for smth that i didnt know was so urgent..AND i forgot to include contact number..gotta redo and add the contact numbers in by monday morning..FORGETFUL!

why whatever i do or choose or say are wrong? inappropriate? am i that unlucky? or stupid?

HAIZ!

and even my cousin and auntie gave me a nick name yday..they call me "sha da jie"..which direct translation is "silly big sister"..which means a blur and stupid elder sister? blur or stupid? should be about the same bah..depends on whether you wanna make it sound nicer or not..blur sounds better to me..

ohh the reason is that i totally forgotten that me and my sis will be gg to their hse to stay overnight after our gown fitting appointment..cos sat they need to guo da li (offerings to ancestors and giving out of cakes and wedding invitation cards)..so i didnt bring any extra clothes to change..in the end i wore my auntie's shorts and cousin's t-shirt~

but seriously i dont recall any thing about it..i only know that we're staying over next friday for my sis's wedding..didnt know yday also need..haiyo..my sis said she did tell me..but i dont recall her telling me..WHY AM I SO BLUR!

anyway..the gown's pretty..just that on the day must be careful about my movements..cos might be able to see the scar that the rashes left behind..yup yup..and yah..havent buy the shoe to match that gown..sian~

my sister's gowns damn nice also lah..hope she'll be the most beautiful woman on earth on her wedding day! :) oh yah..bought her wedding gift already..a very cute precious moment decor~ she wants it for her wedding..to put beside the autograph book~ so nice!

yup..took quite alot of stuffs, so took cab to auntie's place at hougang~ showered and played this hunting for clues game with my cousin..quite fun lah..suppose to spot the 'evidence' and 'items' in a messed up scene..test your eyesight, observation and eng language..cos some items have weird names~ but i fell aslp and knocked out at abt 1am~ slept at my ah liang didi's room with my sis..his bed so comfy~ but was freaking cold cos of the air con~

slept till 12noon..but in between got wake up and slp again for a few times..my auntie, mum and sis was talking in the living room..so loudly..was listening to their conversation while lying on the bed..half aslp..

bathed and had brunch..and wanted to go with them to give out the cakes and cards..but was asked to stay home with my cousin..they say they will be back very soon..and of cos, i believed them..so slacked the whole day with my cousin..playing that game..and played cards with my cousin and uncle..my cousin so pro lah..keep winning..lol

till 6plus den i checked with them see what time they'll be coming back..and the reply was about 8pm! me and my cousin damn sian already..so went hougang mall for dinner at kfc~ den went play pool~ played 4 rounds..all i lost to him..he really damn pro lah..(or perhaps is i too bad at pool..haha)

went back and watched tv after knowing that they're going back already..den soon after, james sent us back home..(*sis forgot to take her phone, so made a u-turn back to collect her phone~ she also blur lah! lol)

yup..photo bucket! have anybody realised that i changed my display pic here? went to explore the photobucket and got it changed :)

*i'm sneezing away just now..someone's missing me? or i'm sick?*

LOL

fangting, weisheng and kaysiang reassured that i'm not sick cos they missed me..so guess i'm really not falling sick =D and i learnt smth new..mumu~

alright..gg to slp already..very tired~ tmr still need to go acc my mum to far east plaza for alteration of her gown..and meeting my sis at stella's hse to discuss abt the wedding stuffs..yup yup..GOODNIGHT!



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and oh yah..got a copy of my grandparents' deathcerts..my dad wants it..for orbituaries..what's the point of wasting this kinda money when they has already passed away? ESPECIALLY WHEN HE DIDNT EVEN ATTEND HIS OWN FATHER'S FUNERAL! maybe he just wanna do smth so that he wont feel so guilty..haiz..